Anyone else out there feel busy as hell, pressed for time, wondering where your free time went to, etc.?  I mean, where has the life in my life went to?  I went back to work last week after my six weeks off recovering from my hysterectomy, and I also began my physical therapy for my back.  I realized that I don’t have A SINGLE MINUTE OF TIME to even think about the things I want to do, let alone do them.  Sure, I went to a house warming “girls night in” party Friday, worked OT and shuttled kids and and went to a kiddie birthday party Sunday, but where was my time?  I can’t think of what I’m sick of this week to even write my weekly post.  Now that scares me!  I’m so busy that I have to text message when I take a pee break at work.  Aggghhh!  Again, as I often wonder, how does technology improve my life or given me more time? 

Between my family, my kids, grocery shopping, working over-time, my health, doctor’s appointments, physical therapy three nights a week, and my work, which includes trying to decide what to do about my illegal and pending job loss while also looking for a job since my job ends next month, I’m busy as hell.  I miss my blogging writing and reading free time, my facebook free time, my goodreads face time, reading, sleeping, reading newspapers and books and going to do things like the movies (Whose dying to see The Time Traveler’s Wife or (500) Days of Summer?) and just the basic stuff like going for walks, and hanging out and having fun.  Sigh.

My stupid partial hysterectomy has sucked the life out of me.  I sweat, I freeze, I’m hungry, I’m not, I feel sick, then I feel ok, my head hurts, and then it doesn’t.  I might have hypoglycemia too, and I have to pick myself with one of those machines but I am too busy to even be able to prick my finger right, so who knows about that!  I’ve been unable to sleep for the past six weeks, and finally Saturday night I feel asleep at two for twelve hours.  It was the best night sleep of my entire summer.  I’m desperately trying to lose weight and have lost 28 pounds (OMG, hurray!!!)

Not only all of this has been going on, but our wireless internet doesn’t like to work on two of our three computers, so again, I face waiting in line for internet time in my home.  I can’t stand that it was finally fixed, and crashed again last night.  Damn it, all I want to do is get online and look for jobs, stuff I can’t squeeze in on my lunch hours.

Finally, the stress of coming back to work at a job where I know I am being discriminated against because of my health really, really, really bothers me.  I’m my cheerful and helpful self there, but I hate it and I can’t wait until it is all said and done.  I’m ashamed that my work is so shady and that I have to witness what goes on there daily.  I went to a Tai chi class last night after work and my physical therapy and the lady was nice enough to let me come for free as I explained I am so crazy from having a million things go wrong in my life between health and work that if I hated the sound of the woman’s voice teaching the class I was going to have to ask for my money back.  Thankfully the woman I spoke too was my age and has major health problems so she completely understood, especially since I told her how lazy my last arthritis swim instructor was and how I couldn’t ask for my money back because I had worked with her for years and felt weird complaining about her.  Between this woman and the instructor they’ve given me job leads, volunteer leeds, and plenty of info on all sorts of issues we all have in common.  I love it when you find someone like that and they help you just our of kindness and understanding like that.  Tai chi was interesting, but I may look into the water form of it as I have major balance issues.

So, what is going on with all of you?  Do you have enough time to do anything for yourself?  Feel free to bitch and moan here.