OMG, I am being harrassed @ work so badly I have to go to Human Resources on Monday

I need your help. As some of you may know, I work for a local government agency. I’ve been having such a bad 7 years week. I’m terrified to tell all of you where I work, or what type of work I do. And I’ve struggled with the most unprofessional, harassing, lazy, and hateful people since the beginning. And I can’t find another job, even though I have great work experience and graduated with honors.

I don’t have the strength to write down every little thing that’s ever happened to me for all these years, but I want to share what’s been going on lately. I actually cried so hard at work yesterday my nose bleed. My big boss is horrible at communicating. He makes decisions to please other agencies, and thus forces his staff to work harder to do these other agencies work. Which wouldn’t be such a huge deal, as I’m a hard worker, a pleaser, etc. But when I’m stuck in the middle, telling people with salaries 5-6 times larger than mine, and they scream at me in front of a crowd of people like a lunatic, that’s where it becomes problematic. In a nutshell, he makes a decision, doesn’t invite me to a meeting for policy change, doesn’t write me a memo, and I hear everything 2nd hand. He’s supposed to meet with the “professionals” and basically tell them they can’t do certain things anymore. Of course 8 days later this hasn’t happened, and I’m the one that has to break the bad news to these people. And they go crazy on me, shaking and convulsing with rage and “Don’t you dare tell me what to do” etc, etc.

When I told my boss that this was a hostile work environment, and that I wanted an apology, he said nothing. He never brought it up, and ignored me for the past 2 days, so in violation of what a manager is supposed to do.

This type of situation has happened to me with these people time and again. And other people who I work in conjunction with are loud, abusive, scream and swear, which normally isn’t a big deal, but when someone is a big scary lug it has a different affect on me. That mess ended after someone’s husband called that person’s boss to complain, as my boss had a lame meeting and didn’t do one thing. Why would he, as it’s his golfing buddy…

And let’s not mention my former co-worker who hated me because they forced me to share her work, so she’d shoot rubber bands at my head, throw paper airplanes in my face, and say stuff under her breathe at me for about 5 years until she quit suddenly 2 years ago. I finally told another boss, who witnessed the whole thing anyway, and she told me to shame on you, get over it. WTF? After I told the supervisor under her to tell her buddy to quit it, or I’m going to human resources, that’s when the chick finally stopped saying things to me, and only gave me the evil eye.

And, lastly, someone discovered my code, and begun entering in all sorts of work wrong with my name all over it, and purpose, and when it was brought to my attention I was smart enough to point out that I was on my damn honeymoon when it was entered, so how the heck could I have done this work?

I actually feel the way I did as a small child growing up in an abusive home. I’m on edge, I cry off and on for days at a time, I feel like I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I’m at my wits end. I hung up on HR 4 times today, well, the lady I needed to talk to didn’t answer, so I felt like an ass leaving a message. I don’t know what to do, any suggestions, experience with this sort of thing you all can share? I just want to feel normal like I did back in 2001…..

Thanks for reading this,

Traumatized Ghetto Girl